Wednesday, August 20, 2008

My Baby Girls First Day of Kindergarten

Today was my baby girls first day of kindergarten. I thought it would be a very sad day but I was fine. I didn't cry as we took her to classroom. I didn't cry when I left her sitting at her desk as she waved goodbye and gave her daddy a thumbs up sign. I didn't cry as I pulled away from school. I was fine all day and even laughed as I picked her up from school. I asked her if she loved kindergarten and she replied "not really". Then she changed her mind and filled us in on her day. I did great today until I read this poem. Then the reality sunk in that she was no longer mine, that I was now sharing her with the world, and I sobbed.


I Trust You'll Treat Her Well
Author: Victor Buono

Dear World:
I bequeath to you today one little girl...in a crispy dress...with two brown eyes...and a happy laugh that ripples all day long.. and a flash of light brown hair that bounces in the sun when she runs.
I trust you'll treat her well.

She's slipping out of the backyard of my heart this morning...and skipping off down the street to her first day of school. And never again will she be completely mine.
Prim and proud she'll wave her young and independent hand this morning and say "Goodbye" and walk with little lady steps to the schoolhouse.

Now she'll learn to stand in lines...and wait by the alphabet for her name to be called. She'll learn to tune her ears for the sounds of school-bells...and deadlines...and she'll learn to giggle...and gossip...and look at the ceiling in a disinterested way when the little boy 'cross the aisle sticks out his tongue at her. And now she'll learn to be jealous. And now she'll learn how it is to feel hurt inside. And now she'll learn how not to cry.

No longer will she have time to sit on the front porch on a summer day and watch an ant scurry across the crack in the sidewalk. Nor will she have time to pop out of bed with the dawn and kiss lilac blooms in the morning dew. No, now she'll worry about those important things...like grades and which dress to wear and whose best friends is whose. And the magic of books and learning will replace the magic of her blocks and dolls. And now she'll find new heroes.

For five full years now I've been her sage and Santa Claus and pal and playmate and mother and friend. Now she'll learn to share her worship with her teachers ...which is only right. But no longer will I be the smartest woman in the whole world. Today when that school bell rings for the first time...she'll learn what it means to be a member of the group...with all its privileges and its disadvantages too.

She'll learn in time that proper young ladies do not laugh out loud...or kiss dogs...or keep frogs in pickle jars in bedrooms...or even watch ants scurry across cracks in sidewalks in the summer.
Today she'll learn for the first time that all who smile at her are not her friends. And I'll stand on the front porch and watch her start out on the long, lonely journey to becoming a woman.
So, world, I bequeath to you today one little girl...in a crispy dress...with two brown eyes...and a flash of light brown hair that bounces in the sunlight when she runs.

I trust you'll treat her well.


9 comments:

dreamw said...

What an appropriately beautiful, meaningful poem... Yes, I can see how you would cry having all of that reality sink into your heart, and now you know how I felt when you left us for your first day of school!

Unknown said...

Oh Tez, this is just beautiful & a real tear jerker! My new 1st graders come to me tomorrow. If I share this poem, I'll bawl! I'm sure your daughter will love ktg.!
TFS

Anke said...

Love this poem, thanks for sharing it! My kids are in 3rd, 6th and 7th
grade this year, but it still rings so true!

Anonymous said...

Tez...I sobbed as well...and I don't even have children! How do you do it?

Anonymous said...

Tez, thanks for sharing this! But please let your daughter know that even proper young ladies can still laugh out loud & kiss dogs & keep frogs in a pickle jar. That as you grow up that it's even more important to remember to take the time to sit on the front porch & smell the lilacs.

Donna S. said...

Tezra - thanks for making me CRY. After a not so easy day with my boy I said to my husband - is it Tuesday yet? Zach goes to Kindergarten on Tuesday. Thanks for the reminder to savor these last few days. Yep... I got my big sunglasses all picked out.

Kari said...

No wonder you started bawling!!! A wonderful poem ... truth, sadness, and all. Thanks for sharing it!

Martha said...

Oh, isn't she SO sweet! I have a kindergartener too!!!

shufgirl said...

Beautiful Poem and pictures. This is a great poem for me because it reminds me to be gentle with my first graders and treasure all their individualities. It's also a great on for me to keep for the girls when they start school.